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lux_marikoStory: Yellow Curtains
Year: 2989
Word Count: 390
Rating: R
Characters: Simon, Dr. Lobell
Warnings: Medical experimentation, gaslighting/torture, oblique references to previous attempted suicide and character death
"It's all inside your head."
okay. promise?
"You won't feel a thing."
okay.
an infinite number ofneedles, waves of burningburning in his skin his brainskin brain
flashes
flashes before my eyes
a cat, a tiger, a lionacat fox wolf tree tree tree
"Anything?"
flashes
sugar, a glass of leomandecookies chocolate chip and coloredcandies oreos--sweetness comfortfood sweetsweet
burning rivers make the burning rivers stop
"Shhh, it's all in your head. The pain isn't real. We talked about this, remember? The drug will open your mind."
flashes
swirly lights and flashingfaces, girlboy house house man man man girl house kitchenkitchen
yellow curtains and stop
stopstopstopi know her iknowher i
gone
she'sgone
moving out of the the househouse green gardens sticks on the ground the ground the ground in the garden greengarden x x cross cross x x
butterflies butterflieslanding on mycheekblood
blood and horror and screaming and ithurts please please please makeitstop
"That was something there! Oh, this is wonderful. You'll see, I'll show you the scans later. I'm going to go back a bit, hold tight. You're doing so well, don't give up now."
blood and horror and screaming fading back to her, framed by the yellow yellowcurtains, holding light and nakedexceptlight and pretty. prettynotbeautiful pretty.
fading back to greengarden blood and horror and screaming and dark eyes fullofpain and
ididin'tmean it please please please stop hurting me stop hurtinghim i'll go away i'll do it i promise just take it back takeitallback i want to take it backbackbackbackbackback--
"Calm down, Simon. Focus. I need you to try, Simon. Try to remember. Go back to the yellow curtains, hold on to the yellow curtains, we'll track through the garden later."
it holds on the yellow curtains, a lifeline out of the river, away from the pounding in his head, prettylady nakedholdinglight he reaches reaches forher reaches
makeitstop
"You only think you feel it. It's just the drug. It'll wear off soon, and then you won't feel a thing. Even in your mind."
the light in her hand fades and it's a gravestone now and he can't read it he can't rememberreading reading
he can't remember
it hurts and he's tired
he croaks 'i'm sorry' and surrenders to the river.
Year: 2989
Word Count: 390
Rating: R
Characters: Simon, Dr. Lobell
Warnings: Medical experimentation, gaslighting/torture, oblique references to previous attempted suicide and character death
"It's all inside your head."
okay. promise?
"You won't feel a thing."
okay.
an infinite number ofneedles, waves of burningburning in his skin his brainskin brain
flashes
flashes before my eyes
a cat, a tiger, a lionacat fox wolf tree tree tree
"Anything?"
flashes
sugar, a glass of leomandecookies chocolate chip and coloredcandies oreos--sweetness comfortfood sweetsweet
burning rivers make the burning rivers stop
"Shhh, it's all in your head. The pain isn't real. We talked about this, remember? The drug will open your mind."
flashes
swirly lights and flashingfaces, girlboy house house man man man girl house kitchenkitchen
yellow curtains and stop
stopstopstopi know her iknowher i
gone
she'sgone
moving out of the the househouse green gardens sticks on the ground the ground the ground in the garden greengarden x x cross cross x x
butterflies butterflieslanding on mycheekblood
blood and horror and screaming and ithurts please please please makeitstop
"That was something there! Oh, this is wonderful. You'll see, I'll show you the scans later. I'm going to go back a bit, hold tight. You're doing so well, don't give up now."
blood and horror and screaming fading back to her, framed by the yellow yellowcurtains, holding light and nakedexceptlight and pretty. prettynotbeautiful pretty.
fading back to greengarden blood and horror and screaming and dark eyes fullofpain and
ididin'tmean it please please please stop hurting me stop hurtinghim i'll go away i'll do it i promise just take it back takeitallback i want to take it backbackbackbackbackback--
"Calm down, Simon. Focus. I need you to try, Simon. Try to remember. Go back to the yellow curtains, hold on to the yellow curtains, we'll track through the garden later."
it holds on the yellow curtains, a lifeline out of the river, away from the pounding in his head, prettylady nakedholdinglight he reaches reaches forher reaches
makeitstop
"You only think you feel it. It's just the drug. It'll wear off soon, and then you won't feel a thing. Even in your mind."
the light in her hand fades and it's a gravestone now and he can't read it he can't rememberreading reading
he can't remember
it hurts and he's tired
he croaks 'i'm sorry' and surrenders to the river.
